Life wasn't always so good for Kendra Wilkinson-Baskett.

In an emotional interview for E! True Hollywood Story, the reality star reveals the struggles she faced in what she calls her "devil years," when she battled drugs and depression, before finding happiness in her marriage to Hank and their son.

"I ended up becoming suicidal, and I started cutting myself. I had so much pain that I just wanted to die. It wasn't that I was trying to die, it was just that my pain took away from my pain inside," she reveals in this exclusive clip.

As well as her own admissions, family members speak out about Kendra's rebellious streak and the toll her actions took on them all. You don't want to miss this.

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Kendra wakes up in her own house for the first time to instant chaos; Kendra takes her fiance, Hank, to the Playboy Mansion to meet Hef for the first time.

Kendra has a housewarming party.

Kendra and friends prepare for her wedding; Kendra introduces Hank to Hef, who makes a surprising offer to the couple.

Kendra shoots a sexy promotional poster for one of her favorite restaurants, Dave & Buster's; Kendra meets Hank's parents in his hometown.

Kendra and Hank embark on a road trip back to Los Angeles after visiting his parents in New Mexico; Kendra and Hank stop in Roswell, N.M., to explore the supernatural mysteries surrounding the town.

Friends and family help Kendra stage a yard sale to get rid of clutter; after Hank gets home, Kendra plans a night on the town with rapper Too Short.

Kendra heads to Las Vegas for a photo shoot and attends a wild party. Meanwhile, back at home Hank is left to clean up after Kendra's dogs.

Kendra loses her "waxing virginity" after friends drag her to a salon; Kendra invites Bridget to help her with the wedding planning.

Kendra, with help from the chef of the Playboy mansion, is throwing a dinner party from some of Hank's football buddies and their wives.

Kendra's bridal shower does not go as planned when Kendra announces to her mom that she is pregnant, and her mom can no longer condone the wedding.

Season 1 concludes with Kendra and Hank's wedding ceremony at the Playboy mansion. But before the nuptials, Kendra is given a sexy bridal and celebrates with Hank at the rehearsal dinner.

Kendra and Hank reflect on the shows first season, and discuss their future and plans for being parents.

With newborn son in tow, Kendra Wilkinson and her football pro hubby Hank Baskett will appear on E!’s special Kendra: Here Comes the Baby tonight at 9 PM. The new family including Hank Baskett IV, will document the birth of their new addition and all that goes along with being a new mom.

Kendra is ready and willing to lose her baby weight; Hank and Kendra Host a dinner.

Kendra's Playmate friends visit her for the first time since her son was born.

Kendra and Hank leave for Miami to attend the Super Bowl; Kendra must make a bikini photo shoot work despite her lingering baby fat.

Kendra and Hank get help moving back to Los Angeles from Holly and Bridget after the football season is over.

Hank, Kendra and Little Hank make the cross-country move back to Los Angeles, reminisce about their Indianapolis adventures, and visit with friends along the way.

Now that Kendra and Hank are back in Los Angeles, they meet with an interior decorator, furnish their new house, and even hire a security team.

As Kendra and Hank take Little Hank to the Mansion to meet Hef for the first time, Bridget plans a surprise welcome home party at her house.

Kendra juggles the demands of motherhood with the demands of her new trainer; Hank learns which NFL team he is going to play for in the 2010 season.

Kendra sets up her mother on a blind date.

Kendra struggles with her appearance now that she's a mom, Hank is offered a modeling job.

Kendra makes a swimsuit appearance in Las Vegas and visits with Holly Madison.

Kendra works on her tell-all autobiography which Hank believes is too revealing.

Kendra and Hank come back to Philadelphia where Kendra learns that not everyone thinks she is still the sexy playmate from the mansion.

As Hank anxiously awaits news of whether he made the Philadelphia Eagles final roster or not, Kendra is determined to make Hank's birthday the best he's ever had.

Kendra hits New York Fashion Week and quickly realizes that she and New York's fashion elite don't mix.

Hank and Kendra learn the Eagles have cut him from their roster.

Kendra and Hank's future hangs in the balance when Hank plays his first game for the Minnesota Vikings.

Kendra and Hank must make a decision that could pull their family apart.

Inspired by Kendra and her recent book about her past, Eddie seeks Kendra's advice on opening up to his family about his sexuality.

Kendra finally moves back to LA but struggles with settling into a home without Hank.

After Kendra gets settled into her new Pasadena house, it's off to San Diego to support Eddie if he decides to come out to his family.

Celebrating little Hank's first birthday; dealing with rumors about Kendra and Hanks relationship.

Kendra & Hank find a house in LA but struggle to make it a home. Hank is nervous about the NFL lockout & Kendra clashes with a celebrity stylist who tries to change her image.

Hank takes Kendra to Cancun for their anniversary & invites Jon & Julie Dorenbos. When the trip becomes more bromance than romance, Kendra is determined to bring the sexy back.

Kendra tries to help a friend find a date after the woman leaves an unhappy marriage. Meanwhile, Hank visits New York to pursue opportunities beyond football.

While Kendra helps Little Hank?s nanny prepare for a blind date, Hank seeks out career opportunities in New York.

During a personal appearance trip to her hometown of San Diego, Kendra confronts her longstanding issues with her mother, Patti.

Hank waits to see if he'll be picked up by a team & Kendra feels pressure to work as much as she can. Everyone gets perspective when Hank Sr. opens up about his battle with cancer.

Jon Lovitz asks Kendra to audition for a TV show.

Kendra's book tour takes her through every city she and Hank have lived in since they got married. She catches up with old pals & faces the shock jock who compared her to Mrs. Brady.

Kendra confronts Hank's past, including his ex-girlfriends, when they attend his high-school reunion.

Kendra helps Hank deal with his fears of returning home without being part of a football team.